So much Rilakkuma love this weekend :)

Fanime RegCon 2012 ♥♥♥

This year at Fanime will be unforgettable.  From the black out on Day 0, close to near mental breakdowns, alpacas, Rilakkuma suits, meeting new people and of course, being reunited with old friends.  I know it’s only been one day since Fanime ended, but this year was freaking insane!! But our reg staff made it through and we did our best, which is why I love everyone there :’)

To anyone who is confused or aware of the situation, let me make things clear; and this is mostly to rebuttal any negative views on the registration staff.  This is from the point of view of one registration staff member.  I’ve been on staff for about four years and this had to be the toughest year.  There was a one hour delay and a black out on Day 0 where we were estimated to check in 12,000 people.  Well obviously there wasn’t 12,000 people on Day 0 but there was a good chunk.  In addition, we check in triple the amount of people that don’t pre-register throughout the convention.  For all the con-goers, I want everyone to know that most of the people on Registration staff have been here for years and it’s rare to get new staff members, luckily we had a few this year.  Nonetheless, there wasn’t enough staff members to cover and assist the whole population of attendees.  We don’t get paid to do this, we don’t get a free hotel, free parking or any discounts in any of the halls.  Yes, we do get to the convention for free but most of us are working from 8-16 hours a day at registration and rarely get to attend convention activities.  We really did our best to assist everyone, and I know a lot of con-goers are angry that the wait was for long even on Friday and Saturday.  But if any of you guys are reading this, if you’re unsatisfied with the service we gave, THEN HELP US VOLUNTEER OR STAFF AT REGISTRATION.  A lot of people during the feedback panel and the forums always say that they’re willing to volunteer but where are they?  Any new staff members that do join are friends of staff members that have never even been to Fanime.  Fanime is for fans by fans.  I cannot stress this enough and it’s really hurtful to see con-goers leash out on us when we’re all doing this just for them.  To everyone that thanked us, thank you because those kind words were sometimes the only thing keeping us going.  Also, the volunteers who came to help!

I think it was on Friday when I almost had a breakdown lol.  I was doing at-con registration and after having the millionth person tell me that I need to do a better job at assisting the line, when I’m not even in line control and I was checking people as fast and accurate as possible, I really just needed to leave.  Luckily, I had Kalen and Lily help me feel better ♥ :(  This weekend was really hectic, but I’m glad my registration family was there.  Even though the convention is in San Jose and I’m from here, when I’m there I feel more at home than ever :’)

Must be done by May 23rd!

Chemistry

  • Review 24 lab report (due last day of class, turn in asap to Steve)
  • Experiment 22 report sheet
  • Write lab reports for 23 (to KS by 5/9) and 25 (last day of class)
  • Quiz on electric and nuclear chem (5/14)
  • Quiz on 22 in lab (5/7)
  • ACS study
  • Lab Exam
  • Final 5/18 9:45am


Biology

  • Activity 12
  • Presentation at 9 next week
  • Type out abstract, introduction, materials, results (graphs), discussion, reference
  • Assemble poster
  • PCR paper
  • Midterm and final 5/23


HS

  • Extra credit papers (x3)
  • Make power point for presentation
  • Review final draft of group paper
  • Final…?


Philosophy

  • Critical Response Paper

My to-do list since I lost my planner and my laptop is in repair.  Never had so much stuff do but no point in losing momentum now.  Reward for crossing off everything in the list is Fanime (more like extra unpaid labor LOOL) and EDC :)

Three years ago I was so selfish and irresponsible.  I only worked for a month at my last job and I didn’t even know how to drive.  It took me 2 hours to get home via public transportation and I was taking useless classes.  But I was happy.  I was irresponsible, selfish yet happy.

Now to the present.  I have a great job where I make my own schedule, I’m on track with my courses and I drive an…okay car.  But fuck, I am so fucking unhappy.  I don’t even know what other way to describe it except for that way.  I’m trying to be the responsible one but I always get overlooked.  I’m carrying all of this invisible burden and everyone could give two less shits about it.  I’m trying to be a good daughter, responsible adult and peer mentor and somehow when they all meet together in the middle, all I see or feel is destruction.

I don’t know what to do, but I know I need to gtfo.

I don’t know what it is but whenever I’m having a really crappy day, Kuma always has the ability to sniff it out and make me feel better. She’s always stuck by my side whether I’m emotionally or physically ill. Usually she sleeps on the other corner of the bed while I adjacent but tonight she’s literally sleeping on my upper body. Her fur is all up on my face and I could not be any happier.

I’m a happy mama. Love my baby :’)

At the end of the semester, the students I peer advise for give a presentation about their transition through academic probation. Sometimes it can be pretty tough trying to get through to them and break old habits. There are some days when I just want to give up on them but I never have. Today really showed me why I never gave up on them. During a few presentations, my students called me out! They thanked me for my services, even if I was tough on them about assignments and that they were grateful to have me as a peer advisor. Usually my students send me their personal regards during our last PA meeting but I have never been in someone’s presentation! One of my students actually took my photo from my sister’s Facebook and devoted a ppt slide to me. Holy crap, I turned so red and I kept trying to hide my embarrassment through everyone’s giggles. Nonetheless, I’m really happy that I’ve been able to make an impact on their life. A whole semester’s worth of stress was worth it after seeing everyone’s appreciation tonight.

$109, why do you do this to me?! :(

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Alpaca and Sakura n__n

At Genki Ramen

I can never pass up a great bowl of soup whether it be ramen, pho, bun bo hue, wonton soup or etc. ♥

I hate being vulnerable

Yet most of all, I resent the person I’ve become as a result.  I have grown a thick shell trying to protect myself from the harsh truths of reality yet I have failed.  I failed by still allowing even the smallest crude comments to penetrate me yet preventing any type expression to leave.  So here I am, just wallowing in my own self-pity.  How sad, to be surrounded by people that I’ve become vulnerable to yet this blog has heard more of my cries than they have seen before their eyes. 

One thing I miss about working at Michael’s: older coworkers. If I had to cover their shift, at least I know that it was because they had something important that came up last minute.

Working with people your own age: a lack of professionalism and level of comfort that coworkers begin to build the longer they have been employed for that job.

For example, I did not give you the easy half of the job AND take over your shift (which I don’t even get paid for) so you can fucking lie about being ill and post up pictures on instagram of you at the mall and out to eat like I wouldn’t see.

I’m sick of working with people, which is one of the reasons why I want to become a veterinarian so I can primarily work with animals. So sick of this shit -___-

I know I have said this a million times but this spring break will be truly unforgettable.  I haven’t had a break in a long time.  For the past two years I’ve been keeping myself occupied with school, winter and summer session, time consuming jobs and daily responsibilities.  True, I have been on incredible vacations before and I’m truly blessed for those times because they are what kept me going. 

Yet this spring break was different.  Who knew just having one week off from everything could ignite the fire back into my soul.  Before spring break, my original mindset was just to power through everything and wish for the best.  I had to forcefully become optimistic for myself and loved ones.  But after spring break, everything is just…I don’t really know how to put it in words lol.  I just feel more alive, despite having post-vacation depression haha.  Life shouldn’t just be about school and work, it’s okay to take a break once in awhile.  And if you do take a break, make sure to make it worthwhile.

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